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POETRY
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HOW AM I WORTHY

My Lord, Dinabandu.
How am I worthy to serve You?
When my mind drifts away,
to thoughts of dismay,
I beg you, I pray,
that you take those away.
My Lord, Dinabandu.
How am I worthy to serve You?
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Jaya Sri Krishna
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ABOUT ME
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Hare Krishna.

Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Sri Krishna who is the focus of my devotion until eternity. All glories to Gauranga who is as the sun enlightening our night of ignorance. All Glories to the Vaishnavas who are very dear to Krishna. All Glories to the devotees who may stumble upon my profile. I hope and pray that you do not deviate from the Path, and that you always fix your mind onto Krishna.

This space was intended to write about myself. However before I go any further I must first apologize for my inabillity to flaweless express me in the English Language. I grew up in a Non English country and sadly my education has not made up for my lack of knowledge of this foreign Language.

Furthermore, I have to make it clear that I think myself to be too insignificance to exessively write about, so instead of reading about the woes of my life I strongly advise you to go read The Bhagavad Gita. That way you are engaged into Krishna Seva which will gradually vanquish all your taste for anything that holds you back from a healty spiritual life.

However, if you still want to know about who I was, Who I became and Who I am now, Here goes.

BIRTH & EARLY CHILDHOOD
I was born in a hospital in an East-Asian country to an Islamic family. Very soon after I was born the doctors discovered that I had visual disabillities. Because my parents saw that I had no future in their country and because they didn't really have the money to care for me they decided to put me up for adoption.

When I was around 8 months old I've got adopted by a Dutch Christan family of whom the father had also visual disabilities. Both of my new parents were ministers in the Dutch Reform Church and therefore it was naturally to them to teach me the Christiann faith from as soon as I could understand.

However when I was four years old I began to severely doubt the faith. The Sunday-School Stories were simply not enough to answer all my questions. So thus began what I now refer to as My years of Mental Speculation. The ministers coudn't answer all my questions so I had to answer them myself.

PRIMARE EDUCATION TO YOUNG ADULT
When I became 8 years old my parents let it slip that my biological parents were 'from the other faith', which made me realize that there were more then one faith. So I began to seek out 'The Other Faith' but got severely disapointed because it was so similar to Christianity. When I was about twelve years old I discovered the New Age Movement, and in particularly Wicca so I began my search there and see if they had the answer to my questions. But they didn't and as I thought I had seen all religions I became a nontheist (atheist but without the belief in modern science)

YOUNG ADULT TIL PRESENT
One night I had this lucid dream. I came into this room. It had paintings on all walls of landscape and people who were strangely dressed. In the center of that room sat a man, cloth in a saffron robe, sitting in lotus position. He beckoned me to come to me and asked "What big questions do you have." So I begain to speak the whole list but he raise his hand and simply said. "If you really are determened to find an answer to all these questions... Go... and seek out Krishna. And that is what I did.

Well, that was my story. I have only one thing left to say:

ALWAYS REMEMBER KRISHNA.
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