i am a karmi hopelessly addicted to material pleasures, yet endlessly captivated by the all-attractive surpreme personality of Godhead, Sri Krishna. i have a split personality. my material self acts through the force of karma and desire, even when it knows it results in emptiness. and my spiritual self, while often eclipsed by my material concerns, is always with Krsna...playing with Him, laughing with Him, offering Him sweets, and making nice gardens and pools for His enjoyment. i follow the regulative principles, chant when i can, read Srimad Bhagavatam every night, observe Ekadasi whenever i can, and offer water and flowers daily to a painting of Sri Nathji. i have even been to Iskcon's temple in Vrindavana, India and various temples around the world...and yet, i have not surrendered. that is my offense. i can only pray for the mercy of Srila Prabhupad, Lord Chaitanya, and Lord Jaganatha that my efforts at devotional service are not offensive.
so it is, that i now seek to expand through association online, and wish to share my experiences, my art, my thoughts...and to ask questions of other aspiring devotees. i am particularly interested in personal experiences and personal relationships with the Lord...as Supersoul, in our dreams, sudden flashes of inspiration, or just our private yearnings for the Lord...and what rasas we may particularly desire to serve Krishna with. there are so many ways, the Lord reciprocates with us, and i would love to relish a drop of that nectar. this site is such an ocean of bliss^^ all glories to the assembled devotees! Hare Krishna!