Haribol, please accept my humble obeisances.
I am having trouble managing my life. For 2 years now I have not had a job and my parents are paying rent. I am 35 years old. I have been chanting japa for about 4 years now. I have seem my life get worse.
I have prayed to Lord Krsna to help me with my life and to lead me to a job so that I can take care of myself. So far that has not happened.
I am not sure what to do, the job experience I mostly have is in retail and restaurant and some phone work. I worked in a record store successfully for about 4 years.
I had a job 2 years ago but it was a temporary position, I was not hired on and ever since I have lived on unemployment, welfare and now it is family paying my way.
When will Lord Krsna help me with this? I don't understand how this could keep going on. I pray for help to the point of exhaustion.
I firmly believe that God answers our prayers but for some reason I wake up every morning realizing how messed up my life is.
I don't know where to start or what to do, I am behind on everything.
I am absolutely frustrated and burned out with my life, if it was'nt for Lord Krsna I would not want to keep going.
I did know devotees recently but they went away. I don't have a car so it makes it even harder for me to associate.
The closest place to associate with ISKCON devotees is 30 miles away and I don't have a car to get there.
The only association I get now is off of the internet.
I wish I could just start all over again with my life. I am tired of everything and things not working out.
I know that I need to learn to make it on my own and I used to do okay for myself but now things are just ruined.
My life has become a nightmare and I thought it would be the opposite since I chant Hare Krsna but things have just not improved.
What should I do?
Continually I think about moving to a community farm but I also believe that I should be able to make it in any situation.
The solution to my life right now is that I need a job.
I am fine spiritually. I am at a point to where I have to focus in a more material direction at this moment.
I live in an apartment on my own with a cat to take care of.
My family right now is funding my life.
I need a solution to this nightmare, now!
Things need to change now! I cannot go on with my life this way and nor should anyone. It is hard not to express anger and frustration over this.
Why do things not change when they should? Why have no new opportunities shown up? Why has Lord Krsna taken away these opportunities and led me to deal with this nonsensical situation? Has anyone else ever gone through this?
Hare Krsna,
Bhakta Aaron
Don't worry
Don't worry. Krishna owns all cars, all transportation systems, all job opportunities, etc. Just continue to chant and pray to Krishna. When Krishna sees how sincere you are, He will most certainly bless you.
Lilia
Have heart Prabhu...
Hare Krishna Prabhu,
It is only natural for you to feel the way you do right now. But you must remember, Krishna has put you in the situation for some good reason that only He knows and understands. It is for your ultimate benefit. He will show you the way out. Krishna never lets his devotees down. Have courage, keep up your efforts and bear with your situation. Wait for that door to open. Patience is the key.....
Haribol!
Your eternal servant,
Eternal Muser
sounds like everything is right on track
I have never met a devotee living outside the temple that has not had trouble with things of mundane living.
Thats what chanting and reading BG and worshiping does, it sets one on a spiritual path. You will get what you seek in some way! Some have even died because of spiritual commitment over mundane.
If it is that bad, you may want to go monastic, and just get out of the race, or find a mix - but you need the will to produce in the material world to an extent - which is not bad, the trick is to try to find something that means someting to you for your source of income. You may be looking in the wrong place. Think of what you would really want to do for a job, and make a bold attempt to move in that direction.
Visualize how this new job will work with your spiritual practice, and see that it is reallistic to do both in harmony or as one - if you have a sensable vision and plan for this, this is when you will get help from Krishna - Krishna just hasnt seen any plan that youve come up with that works yet.
Haribol
Vairagya
You are so right about this, Prabhuji.
Vairagya i.e. renunciation is a double edged sword in the material world.
For a moment its better to think of what we would truly enjoy doing for a job, even if it does not appear directly related to Krishna, rather than just for earning money, which we have to anyway.
I thank Krishna so so much that He made it so that i fortunately followed my interest and loved my job , and could never imagine doing something i did not really care about - but that was in my ignorant past. Today, i would just do my duty of course.
This can look like goodness that comes out of passion (likes / dislikes), but so what ? Because its something you like , you will put your heart into it, that's where the goodness comes in.
Perhaps the Lord is waiting for you to discover this area , Bhakta Aaron, and hence is challenging you. He wants you to get up and try harder, rather smarter , in the RIGHT direction, and the job willl come along.
We don't want to be like the salmon flying upstream , rather like the fish flowing with the current.
Please do not get annoyed with me for "empty talk".
May Krishna show you the way.
Good luck
Your servant and well-wisher
Krishnali
Hare Krsna
Hare Krsna, thank you. That's good advice from everyone.
I actually do need to get up a lot earlier in the morning. If I have a more regulated schedule I'm sure things will work out a lot better. I've realized this over and over again, now I just need to do it. I know there are things out there that I could be doing.
Haribol,
Bhakta Aaron
Hey aaron, I can so relate
Hey aaron, I can so relate to your comments about the schedule! And also your financial issues; I can relate to that too. Sometimes I wonder if Krishna lets us have financial issues because he has to remind us of who is in charge and what is really important?
A proper schedule, and doing the things we know we ought to be doing, like chanting and such, will surely help us even if it is not yet clear how. Best wishes Aaron!